Dear Wilful One,
It’s been a while since I’ve written to you and so much has happened in the last twelve months.
Last year was a tough one for you. After a playground incident resulting in a nasty injury and ongoing bullying, you developed some horrible symptoms because of anxiety.
Some days you would be rolling around on the floor with pains in your stomach and every day was a battle to get you to school. We had to go through a gamut of medical tests to eliminate any other causes before getting you on to an awesome psychologist who has helped you immensely.
It was horrible to watch you go through this time, particularly when I know first-hand how crippling anxiety can be. Seeing you overcome such a challenge has made me appreciate even more what an incredible little human you are. Your ability to articulate what you are feeling is an amazing thing at your age and something that will stand you in good stead for the rest of your life.
Despite your horrid start to the year and a lot of time off school, you still managed to end with a great report card and the grade 3 Civic Award, which was well-deserved recognition of your willingness to help others at every opportunity.
From there you have come on leaps and bounds. You have found a great group of friends, taken up the saxophone and just today I watched you be inducted as a Student Councillor.
You probably don’t realise it right now, but being elected to be a representative of your peers is a great honour and responsibility. I have no doubt that this is just the first of many times in your life when you take up such a role.
On the home front things have been rocky but you soldier on. I think the breakdown of our family unit has been hardest felt by you because you understand better than the other kids what is going on. Sometimes you get overwhelmed by your frustration, anger and disappointment at the changes that are happening and it breaks my heart each time you cry. I’m so thankful for all the positive influences that surround you because I would hate for this situation to darken your shining spirit.
Being the empathetic soul that you are, I know you also feel my pain deeply, despite my best attempts at hiding it. I’m so careful not to lean on you too heavily because the last thing I want is for you to feel like you have to be strong for me. At the age of 9 you should not have to bear the burden of being “man of the house”.
However, I would be lying if I said I could get through this without you. Not only have you stepped up to help with the younger two, you brighten my days with your amazing sense of humour and never-ending love. I look forward to our stolen moments of one-on-one time as much as you do.
I am so incredibly proud of you. I am proud of everything you are and everything you have the potential to be.
Being your mother is the single biggest achievement of my life and something I will be ever grateful for.
I love you with all my heart.